Why do I love you? <3

CopyrightGGH832 (Georgena Hill) 2009

You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, its gone forver. Love is like falling down. It leaves you scared, hurting, and you have the memories forever. Your the one who broke my heart, the whole reason my world fell apart, your the one who made me cry, yet im still in love with you and I dont know why. Wanting you is hard to forget, loving you is hard to regret, losing you is hard to accept, but even with all of this pain, letting you go is the hardest. For a few months and miniuts, you made me feel like I auctually ment something to someone. I cried today... not because I miss you... or even because I love you... but because I migh jest (just) maby, just maby be okay without you. Hold my hand, one time, and look me in the eyes, just so I can remember why I fell for you in the first place. You always have an out. Always an exit strategy, so that you don't get hurt, so the your the one walking away. Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow: we must fail in order to know. Sometimes our vision only clears, once its been cleaned out by 1000 tears. I'm holding onto something that used to be, and parying that one day I will wake up, and will be as it used to be. You won't find another girl who will put up with so much crap from you, and enjoy all of it. You won't find another girl who gets all your crap, and is still in love with you after 4 years of it. I'm scared to fall in love, because last time I did, my whole world came crashing down. Sometimes life sucks, but once you have had your heartbroken, you can get through almost anything. I have never stoped loving you, not even when you yelled at me, and told me to go away. Not when is was sos obvious how mush you hated me, and not when you ran away from me only when I was with my friends. I have tried to show you this past year in so many ways, but nothing ever got through to you. I never stoped loving you, and after reading this, you know who you are. I didn't want to tell you, because I know that you probaly don't feel the same way. ... and I'm sorry. that things between us have been so bad. And I get that they probably will never ever be the same again.

Sometimes you meet someone, and they blow your mind. You lose all thoughts, and can only feel while your in their arms. Their smile can bring you through the hardest things in the world. And just them being there can automatically make your day the best day ever. Their eyes make you feel like your the only persoin alive in the world, and that you are important. But sometimes this person is far away, in distance, age, or just because of something that happended. And because you love them so much. You want the best for them. So you break you own heart for them, you want to tell them, but you know they dont feel the same. So you are afraid. And it leaves you wondering, why do i feel like this.? And then you relize, That you feel this way because you love them, and they will never know.